I want to live

Honestly this day has been a transference from one shit to another. First my brother talks to me and tells me to be ready for anything. Which confirms what my brother said the day before. Next i come to work and hear rumors of newbies getting a bigger salary than us! What the hell is wrong with this company. Shit it really irritates the hell out of me. Makes me lose the will to start working properly. But dang it i really have to start working properly or else i wont ever have the right to find another work. I really need to start doing this. I have a few additional new things to do After this day of research

But in a good way today ive learned something i just realized it now at least something good came out of this shitty day today i’ve learned that somehow that i want to live! i want to live for my own. i want to live as in living not living this mockery of a life. I want to live and make something of myself and be proud of who and what i am. I also want to live because i want the people around me to be proud of me so words to live by nowdays ” I want to Live”

For the Long Term

1. Stop Smoking(4 sticks today shit. I really have to start working on this)
2. Lose Weight and get to 160-170 lbs. (No exercise today but i ate a lot today which means i have to work my ass of tom)
3. Regulate my time for games(I dont have much time for games anymore nowadays)
4. Be more responsible! (Im still studying ODI right now and at least im able to finally start on something)
5. Be more self reliant or independent (The many things happening in my life is really forcing me to take on this)
6. Learn to Meditate (Study about it today in the internet)
7. Never be late again (Woke up early but still the lack of willpower is distressing must make a way to make me stand up and get out of bed)
8. Learn to control my facial reactions more( Dihia shared this with me today and it seemed i have a way of reacting to people that make me look like a spoiled child i guess i have to study myself more clearly)

Tasks for the Week

1. Jogging(Nothing today)
2. Sleep Early(I have no time for this so far but im considering doing this now but i have to work.)
3. Canvass for guitar (Im not having the time to start this yet but i swear i will have to start somewhere)
4. Finish the Messala Application (Brought the application form to the HR will only have wait for the application to return so i can give it to the Messala Office)
5. Learn something new about the stock market today (Learn a whole lot of other concepts but i have to find something better and apply it for use)
6. Get Kim the foam for the earphone(Gave it today enjoy bi)
7. Post here everyday (Done)
8. Find Yoga Class(Found out there are classes for this at Xavier problem is the membership for Xavier is what i lack i cant just go on using my own funds like that and that i have to plan this carefully)
9. Door Jammer(For extra security for the room still considering this on what to use)
10. get sports earphone( they usually cost around 2k plus the sennheizer brands)
11. buy some jump rope (Bought the jump rope used it twice but since ive been going to boxing i need to start going on fixing it)
12. Buy Sauna Suit (it costs around 1300php and FYI Ms. Mariano the Sauna Suit is for use during exercise to sweat more and people use it to lose weight faster )
13. Mouthwash(bought some today as i was about to run out)
14. Bought gloves for pull ups at the boxing gym( I need this for more arm strength)
15. Find Condo(i already pulled some interesting information from a few friends and so far i have good leads and how and what to look for it)
16. Find out more about money market(Thanks Chrissie for the information)