Brain Drain

I want indepence but somehow I know what the  price is but im afraid to pay it. I mean all my life ive lived with my parents and it comes with a lot of perks but am I really ready for that freedom that I so want? I want to do a lot of things that people can do and they can do whatever they want to do anytime anywhere. But I guess that’s the limitation of living under your parent’s house and under their rule. But I guess I do understand the rules they’ve come with.

Anyway moving on I feel guilty for the things well.. not what happened this past weeks. But I’m guilty for not being a good son. I guess I get the reason why my mom doesn’t exactly sync with me as im the son who spends the whole in the room or playing by the tv everyday without any effort in interaction. But im gonna try to make up for that because this Saturday im going to take my mom to dinner with my one brother and my sister. Or maybe my dad too for that case. I hope I can make up for lost time I guess and show them how capable I am that I can take care of myself.

Oh note btw I was supposed to laze myself today thanks to a push I was able to add things on my list today. J and ive gotten a bit wiser but still ders soo much left to learn still. Night people!

For the Long Term

1. Stop Smoking(4 sticks)
2. Lose Weight and get to 160-170 lbs. (was supposed to jog but it rained)
3. Regulate my time for games(wanted to play but abi stopped me from playing haha thanks baboy!)
4. Be more responsible! (Finally finished the ODI getting started PDF it should have taken me faster to finish it but at least im done with it but I have to start with the manual)
5. Be more self reliant or independent (Damn I talked a lot of business today and I started to get a overload in my brain but it was a good talk)
6. Learn to Meditate (No news im procrastinating in this department must start somewhere)
7. Never be late again (Woke up earlier than usual which was kinda weird but overall had a good day)
8. Learn to control my facial reactions more(Haven’t gone through a test with this but will someday)

Tasks for the Week

1. Jogging(No exercise for today as it rained L and I didn’t want to punish my arms yet after the ordeal yday)
2. Sleep Early(Slept early I guess)
3. Finish the Messala Application(Still waiting for the new form to come back)
4. Post here everyday (Its 130 and im still posting here aren’t I :p )
5. Study a business which I have a list on my cellphone which are five business and I need to pool information about it and share it with abi next week
   1. Silver
   2. Food Stalls
   3. Clothes
   4. Soap Refill
   5. Tutor
6. Door Jammer(For extra security for the room still considering this on what to use)
7. get sports earphone( they usually cost around 2k plus the sennheizer brands)
8. Buy Sauna Suit (it costs around 1300php found others but they looked like the type to get wrecked easily)
9. Find Condo(Best lead so far is to talk to francis when shit hits the fan.)
10. Find out more about money market(wasn’t able to research but I found out more than I bargain for for some other topics)
11. Find Yoga Class(Found out there are classes for this at Xavier problem is the membership for Xavier is what i lack i cant just go on using my own funds like that and that i have to plan this carefully)
12. Canvass for guitar (I have the information but the time itself is the problem nowadays as I don’t get the time much to sit around and twiddle my thumbs)
13. Learn something new about the stock market today (I got a few schedules but the problem is a time I have to set an appointment for those scheds in citisec online but I also learned that the stock market isn’t for me yet as I don’t have the proper funds yet.)

I want to live

Honestly this day has been a transference from one shit to another. First my brother talks to me and tells me to be ready for anything. Which confirms what my brother said the day before. Next i come to work and hear rumors of newbies getting a bigger salary than us! What the hell is wrong with this company. Shit it really irritates the hell out of me. Makes me lose the will to start working properly. But dang it i really have to start working properly or else i wont ever have the right to find another work. I really need to start doing this. I have a few additional new things to do After this day of research

But in a good way today ive learned something i just realized it now at least something good came out of this shitty day today i’ve learned that somehow that i want to live! i want to live for my own. i want to live as in living not living this mockery of a life. I want to live and make something of myself and be proud of who and what i am. I also want to live because i want the people around me to be proud of me so words to live by nowdays ” I want to Live”

For the Long Term

1. Stop Smoking(4 sticks today shit. I really have to start working on this)
2. Lose Weight and get to 160-170 lbs. (No exercise today but i ate a lot today which means i have to work my ass of tom)
3. Regulate my time for games(I dont have much time for games anymore nowadays)
4. Be more responsible! (Im still studying ODI right now and at least im able to finally start on something)
5. Be more self reliant or independent (The many things happening in my life is really forcing me to take on this)
6. Learn to Meditate (Study about it today in the internet)
7. Never be late again (Woke up early but still the lack of willpower is distressing must make a way to make me stand up and get out of bed)
8. Learn to control my facial reactions more( Dihia shared this with me today and it seemed i have a way of reacting to people that make me look like a spoiled child i guess i have to study myself more clearly)

Tasks for the Week

1. Jogging(Nothing today)
2. Sleep Early(I have no time for this so far but im considering doing this now but i have to work.)
3. Canvass for guitar (Im not having the time to start this yet but i swear i will have to start somewhere)
4. Finish the Messala Application (Brought the application form to the HR will only have wait for the application to return so i can give it to the Messala Office)
5. Learn something new about the stock market today (Learn a whole lot of other concepts but i have to find something better and apply it for use)
6. Get Kim the foam for the earphone(Gave it today enjoy bi)
7. Post here everyday (Done)
8. Find Yoga Class(Found out there are classes for this at Xavier problem is the membership for Xavier is what i lack i cant just go on using my own funds like that and that i have to plan this carefully)
9. Door Jammer(For extra security for the room still considering this on what to use)
10. get sports earphone( they usually cost around 2k plus the sennheizer brands)
11. buy some jump rope (Bought the jump rope used it twice but since ive been going to boxing i need to start going on fixing it)
12. Buy Sauna Suit (it costs around 1300php and FYI Ms. Mariano the Sauna Suit is for use during exercise to sweat more and people use it to lose weight faster )
13. Mouthwash(bought some today as i was about to run out)
14. Bought gloves for pull ups at the boxing gym( I need this for more arm strength)
15. Find Condo(i already pulled some interesting information from a few friends and so far i have good leads and how and what to look for it)
16. Find out more about money market(Thanks Chrissie for the information)

Friday finally!

Here i am… another friday at home doing nothing but just watch supernatural. Well i was supposed to go somewhere with my friend but well at the last minute he had to bail out for a meeting. So i guess im stuck here at home but no biggie i mean its not like its different from any Friday. I had to take a half day today because of the headache its really really killing me. I’m losing sleep over it. besides that well today is really different maybe because well for one.. im starting to miss her(her shifts are really starting to get on my nerve they’re really overworking her to death)… two i need something relaxing like a drink to chill me down apparently im not exactly having the best of mood swings. But then again at least i have friends coming over tom it should be a lot of fun. oh and the third one on monday i was requested to report to the main office. i no longer have to go to Pfizer Makati which is a great thing but nonetheless im sad because the place has become such a familiar fixture in my life but then again the trip of going to Makati everyday?? PFFFTTT!! ok na un! hahaha )

For the Long Term

1. Stop Smoking(4 sticks today!)
2. Try boxing a maximum of 9 hours a week(Still nothing but i plan to go tomorrow morning)
3. Regulate my time for games( Today i didnt have to regulate the time since its a weekend)
4. Be more responsible! (Well im still trying to see how i can manifest this ideal)
5. Be more self reliant or independent ( Working on it!)

Tasks for the Week

1. Jogging
   • Today (Well i wasnt able to jog due to a headache for one. and for two ive read and learned that the headache’s cause is the exercising im going too far already so today i decided to chill out. I was advised to do the jog for three times a week)
2. Sleep Early(Well work in progress still its frustrating when you try to sleep nothing happens)
3. Canvass for guitar (still thinking of purchasing it but which of the guitar i am going to purchase that is still the question)
4. Finish the Messala Application (Its a coincidence that i was put back into the main office so i can submit this easily)
5. Learn something new about the stock market today (Was quite busy day today)
   Here are the new additional tasks for the week
6. Get Kim the foam for the earphone(Still havent gotten it but tomorrow is a saturday so i can do this)
7. The cloth for the hot dog( Ill ask the maid for one)
8. Post here everyday (well this should be a damn giveaway i should cross this everyday hehe)

Revisions and updates for the day Today

Revisions Revisions i looked over the list i went back around the first time. and i thought id change it and update it at the same time. So here im going to start with the long term goals and the short term goals again. It should also be a good exercise to remind myself again what im doing again.

For the Long Term

1. Stop Smoking(Honestly this is gonna be a hard task but in order to fully be able to follow through with this I am going to start my tally of how many cigarettes i have each day)
2. Try boxing a maximum of 9 hours a week( The Doctor gave me a go signal but with a warning to take care if the hand starts hurting again. So i better take it easy. But due to time constraints on my part. I won’t be able to box during the weekdays. I will however be able to box during the weekends. So cross my fingers i hope ill be able to go)
3. Regulate my time for games( Ive been able to regulate my time so far with the help of exercise where i choose just to take a jog instead of just playing and i play up to a maximum of two hours still. Not a bad change from the four hours playing before)
4. Be more responsible! (Being more responsible is one of the end goals)
5. Be more self reliant or independent ( this should be self explanatory)

Tasks for the Week

1. Jogging
   • Monday (Wasnt able to.. watched a movie that night)
   • Tuesday(exhasted wasnt able to even go to work which was a mistake)
   • Wednesday (Success! was able to go around the village twice did a short sprint then crunches 15 min jump roping and push ups the whole shebang Yahoo!)
   • Thursday (Success! well half half because i only jogged for an hour then did a 15 minute jump rope routine although it did get the job done)
   • Friday
2. Sleep Early(Well work in progress still its frustrating when you try to sleep nothing happens)
3. Canvass for guitar (Due to the time constraints but i have asked my friend Oli how much a guitar is he told me to get one from Santa Mesa that should be only for around 1k but if im really serious i should get a Yamaha C500 and the costs total to 5k so i should think on it)
4. Finish the Messala Application ( I finished the application but was unable to pass it to the messenger have to find an alternative way to give it which includes the compensation for the Flexbenefits at work too)
5. Learn something new about the stock market today (Havent got much leeway in that department yet but ill try to find the time. The tip Gen gave me should help speed things up a bit)
   Here are the new additional tasks for the week
6. Get Kim the foam for the earphone(Ive learned that they are being sold at Cd-r king i will try to look there tomorrow)
7. The cloth for the hot dog( Ill ask the maid for one)
8. Bring the copy of the movies to the office for Lynn to copy (Done! enjoy watching those movies Lyn!)
   
9. Post here everyday (well this should be a damn giveaway i should cross this everyday hehe)

As a side note today marks the anniversary of Brothers Burger and theyre having a sale my family got one. and i have to say the Quarter Pounder Burger with Milk was delish!!